The thought of losing a child cripples me [emotionally]. Although I have thankfully not lost a child to war my mama heart hurts so deeply for those who have that is how this poem was born so many years ago.
That is why I share it here today.
But let me not forget – let none of us forget.
Memorial Day is more than a long weekend, a parade, or a flag waving in the warm breeze. For many families, it is a chair left empty. A voice that no longer answers. A folded flag resting where a son, daughter, husband, wife, father, or mother once stood.
Today, we remember those who took an oath beneath a flag of pride and came home draped beneath it.
This poem was written years ago, but like grief itself, its meaning never ages. It is for the mothers who still whisper lullabies into silence, for the families who carry pride and heartbreak in the same breath — the same trembling hands. And for every fallen service member who gave all they had —whose absence still echoes through the lives they left behind.
Little Man By Janna Hill
IT’S TIME TO GO TO bed little man Cover up your head little man I’ll see you when the sun breaks in the morn Say your prayers and close your eyes I’ve locked the monsters all outside She’d sang those words to him since he was born
He grew to be a brave young lad And followed after his ole dad Beneath a flag of pride his oath was sworn They brought him home in silk lined wood And all around him soldiers stood While Butterfield’s Lullaby played upon the horn
It’s time to go ahead little man I know that you weren’t scared little man My heart breaks I can’t see you and I mourn I’ve said my prayers for your closed eyes I’ve tucked my feelings deep inside She sang into a folded flag of thorns.
I’m not sure who I’m speaking to in the audience; whether they are a curious reader or an independent author, I will try to address the topic in a way that all can understand.
In the first portion of my annual Indie report I shared a few things I have learned regarding support, reviews and social media.
The burning question I have been asked most is, how much money do independent authors make per month?
When the question is asked, they are looking at independent authors as a whole. A problem arises there because independent authors are not a whole, they are… Independent.
I would not venture to offer an “average”, but I’m sure that you can find that information somewhere else.
How much money an independent author makes is going to depend on how many books they sell. The same is true of traditional publishing.
It also depends on the list price of the book(s) and the royalty percentage.  That can vary significantly.
How many books they sell may also depend on how many books they have published.
Even best sellers get forgotten. Just like in traditional publishing.
You need to have something to follow up with or — be a one-hit wonder.
Unless you have the next To Kill a Mockingbird…
I suppose it’s about time for the next Harper Lee.
Unless you are someone like Harper Lee, it’s advisable you have three stories ready to hit the market and working on the next one at the same time.
A potential buyer that goes to your sellers page is going to look at how many books the author has, and how well they’re doing. They’re also going to look at reviews.
If there is only one book or if there are no reviews, they may not be willing to take a chance on you/that author.
Sorry, but that’s the truth. If you’re a writer chances, are you are a reader also. Put yourself in the readers place. Ask yourself, “would I, as a reader, take a chance on me?”
It’s okay if you talk to yourself— I do it all the time. 
Use beta readers and a support system, etc. to generate some reviews on your releases.
Not fake reviews.
Not paid reviews. Please.
How many books you sell will depend on how good your book is and how much you promote it.
How will people know about this book?
Are you willing to spend money to make money? If so, how much?
But we will save that topic for another time. For now, let’s get back to the question of hand.
Regarding how much money do you/an independent author make.
I have to giggle at this point and imagine a Scrooge-like character. I can see him/her with a wicked grin, anxiously rubbing their hands over a pile of shiny coins. And, of course they are counting dollar signs instead of sheep as they drift off to sleep.
Anywho. I digress.
What a person makes as an independent author can range from $0 a month to $4000 a month— or more.
Now $4000 a month is not the norm; it is rare and what I consider success.
4K sounds like a big deal — and it is.
$48,000 a year is a nice income and many people are able to live comfortably on that.
But most independent authors will not see that sort of success. So let that sink again.
There are many other fields that you could go in to if you’re only interested in making money.
And that’s completely understandable because living in our society requires that you have money.
Most independent authors have a full-time job, or at least a part-time job.
Were they already have the monetary means to write full-time.
So there’s that in a nutshell.
If you plan to write, then write because you love it— because you are driven to.
Try writing essays, short stories, small pieces to submit to magazines… anything to build your résumé. 
Right on? Write on!
Now go have a wonderful day.
P. S. April is National Poetry Month and I do plan to post some personal poetry this year.
I am not taking suggestions or submissions like in years past.
Why?
Because I am hip-deep in my own re-writing, re-creating and re-editing.
With that said, let me add a word of caution. Be careful about who you trust.
Can you believe I have a solid year behind me in this adventure as an independent author/publisher?
My how time flies when you’re having fun.
So what have I learned other than how to type while holding fried chicken in one hand and a biscuit in the other?
Who doesn’t love fried chicken and a biscuit?
A lot!
Do I have any advice for beginners?
Oh yes! Indeed I do and my first pearl of wisdom is this: cut the biscuit in half, strip the chicken and make a sandwich. It will be much easier to handle.
I would also suggest turning the keyboard over and gently shaking the crumbs loose verses picking between the keys. That tip will save you time and keep your proofreader from returning your manuscript un-proofed with a note that says Get back to me when you’re sober!
I don’t have any real pearls but if you’re interested I’ll be happy to share a handful of pebbles and opinions.
#1 Support: Get some! No man is an island. Editing, proofreading and polishing don’t necessarily mean stripping away your authenticity.
Surround yourself with people you can trust, people who are willing to encourage you, offer constructive criticism and be brutally honest when necessary.
If your book is your baby, prepare it to face the world and get that baby some child support.
Lesson: Keep it real even in fiction. Find people you can trust (paid or voluntary) and listen to them.
#2 Reviews: Good reviews are fabulous but they don’t guarantee massive sales. On the other hand bad reviews definitely hurt sales.
You may cry. You may get furious. But do not respond!!
Responding to bad reviews and personal insults is a no-no.
Lighten up, insults can be funny. Learn from the constructive ones and laugh at the assholish ones.
Yes, I just made assholish a real word.
Not everyone likes spaghetti so what makes you think everyone will like what you dish out?
Lesson: There will be haters. Get used to it.
#3 Social Media: I firmly believe in building an online presence and interacting. I said in- ter-act-ing.
That means relating to people,not only networking and connecting but talking and occasionally having a conversation.
I tend to avoid a couple of the most popular media sites for that very reason.
How do you respond to “Buy my book! My book’s on sale!”
You say something like “I see you’re from Manhattan. How is the weather there?”
And they respond with “Here’s a link to Amazon. Be sure to leave a review.”
Yeah. I’m not talking to them anymore. Neither is a lot of other people.
Lesson: In-ter-act.
I like blogging. I’m not sure how many book sales it has garnered (if any) but I enjoy it.
It’s like bloggers are… wow, I don’t know… like they are real human beings or something.
Lesson: Blog away. Blogging has zero calories and you meet great people from all over the world. It’s an inexpensive means of travel and sometimes you find the inspiration needed for your next story.
While we are on the topic of blogging allow me to weave in an experience related to marketing.
I recently consulted with a couple of PR firms who shall remain nameless. One suggested I buy their book (argh). Um, no. I am looking for someone to create “the buzz” for me — just do it okay?!
The only buzz I am motivated to create comes in the aftermath of consuming liquor.
The second person (much more helpful) looked at my social media sites and informed me I was not promoting myself enough. The conversation went like this: “You’re just there” she explained while politely pointing out I was not utilizing said media properly. “I’m sorry but one more ‘buy my book-my book’s on sale’ and I may rip the arm off of this chair. I can’t do it, that’s why I contacted you special magic guru lady.”
She may be a lovely little witch, but she is not a special guru lady.
“It’s not that easy anymore. What about your blogger account?” She was scanning search results as we spoke, “Do you have one?”
“Well sure. I posted something about 2013 releases but I’m more comfortable at WordPress.”
“Let me see what you are doing on WordPress… It seems your focus is on photography and just hanging out?”
“Yeah, it’s like a bar/library/art gallery, cool huh? Except they don’t serve drinks. It’s BYOB.”
“That’s fine but you need to squeeze in a pitch directing readers to buy your books.”
“I have a website listing most published works. Just google Janna Hill and you’ll find me.”
“That’s not enough. You’re going to have to get more involved in promoting yourself. You have to get out of your comfort zone.”
“Oops my macaroni is burning. I’ll have to get back to you.”
Lesson: Even for a fee no one will do it all for you. I need to “get out of my comfort zone.”
Maybe I will but if I ever respond to a greeting with “Buy my book. Leave me a review” somebody shoot me please.
*BYOB: bring your own bottle could now mean bring your own book.
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