On This Day ….

On this day forty-eight years ago…

In the spring of 1977 I was in the early prime of my teenage years; she was in the latter prime of her teens.

Life was stretched out before us like a long, hot summer with an endless amount of options- of opportunities and roads to be traveled.

Could she imagine that [on that beautiful spring day] that she’d never see summer?

I don’t think so, I know I couldn’t.

Did anyone predict a (legally blind) man would be driving a little too fast in a residential area?

No, none of us could foresee the future on that dreadful day of the accident.

Nor could we ever have envisioned the short days ahead.

The hazy hours of hope and disbelief and denial until …

Until there was nothing left to do but mourn.

Oddly enough (or not) I still mourn.

The grief is not near as raw and not quite as heart wrenching as it was forty-eight years ago.

It’s more like a constant dull throbbing you learn to live with and usually ignore …

But sometimes it sneaks past the smiles and laughs of grandchildren, family and friends.

Sometimes the grief creeps in among life, among the daily routines…

and all I can do is sit with the bittersweet memories.

This personal little tidbit is what inspired the writing of Odd Man Out, a short story that can be found in the collection Once Upon a Dead Gull. Or read it in the larger story collections of More or Short Stories & Such.

Except from Odd Man Out

My mother used to say I never met a stranger. I reckon she was right but that didn’t keep me from feeling like a foreigner.

I was the peculiar child that didn’t look quite like the others; a raucous summer born among winter babies. I cared too much and cried too easy and sometimes I forgot that I wasnt everybody’s mother.

Happy Friday Y’all

A short, short story about a timeless life.

Inspired by Time and Eternity, on a topic I have often dwelt on and for whatever reason I feel compelled to share a piece written in in 2011. And congratulations to Snowak for being Freshly pressed

 A short, short story about a timeless life.

Consumed by a paralyzing and debilitating dread. Lying inert as frenzied milliseconds spark still frames with bursts of terrestrial years past.
Whirling memories so fast they pin my mind to the wall with such intense pressure I cannot even utter why or what.
And then…
Quiet… Calm… Tranquility as clean and clear as the waters of a mountain spring. A peace more pure than morning dew.
Entrancing light more than warms and welcomes me, it heals me.
All of my troubles now seem trivial, fleeting, and totally unimportant.
I am overcome by a sense of well being… an indescribable comfort that makes pain, sorrow and worry words I no longer  comprehend.
There are no strangers here, I know everyone and everyone knows me. The glowing they emit is untainted and wholesome, it is love and it nourishes my spirit.
The further I travel from this flesh and bone shell, the more peaceful and perfect I feel.
Awakened to the memory of such wonder and well being I can see the universe. Where we have all been, where we are going, together.
I am not grieved for anyone who is not here, only grateful for those present.
I want to ask questions but none of them really matter now. The few inquiries I have are answered before I can speak:
Yes, they are here. The answer is no. Time? Time has many meanings. .. All in due time.
A sudden jolt and I awake ensnared in this weak, pained, decaying carcass. More aware now of all these imperfections, though less troubled by them for they are the fate of every man to some degree.
I am made aware that the anxiety of transition will remain. As it was coming into the flesh, it will be when returning to the spirit. Much like the fear of a roller coaster one is determined to ride.
Death comes to every life and life comes from every death.
And me…. I nearly lived.