Of Poetry (Resident of Insanity)

Of Poetry

Be it good, bad or indifferent I suppose I will always be a poet at heart.

One might think “real” writing (you know things like novels, short stories and blogs) would dissuade poetic tendencies but it doesn’t… and it shouldn’t.

Someone once said of poetry, “I honestly don’t know why it flies through my head but it’s like an energy that must be loosed and the only way I know to let it go is to jot it down.” Okay that someone was me but we’ve already established that authors and poets are insane a peculiar lot. At least that’s what I keep hearing from the voices living outside of my head.

Admittedly I tend to write disturbing prose. Why? I have no freaking idea other than the above explanation and this one just flew in.

Resident of Insanity

 

He gnashed and smashed his teeth to bits

Hissing shards of peppermint

On face and lace chipped molars lit

While gums and tongue did chide

~

The air like mud was thick with scent

Red with dread and white with grit

Dentin mixed with blood and spit

Where insanity did reside

~

He snatched and scratched at lights not lit

Held cries in eyes seen through slits

Pleading, “Someone give a shit

And plump this crumpled pride”

~

But none could hear his broken mouth

Or see the lights had all gone out

With hand on heart he faced the south

And they say that’s where he died

 

*Here’s this year’s first reminder that April is National Poetry Month so you have plenty of time to be thinking about it. Whether you read my poetry or that of someone else plan on expanding your horizons.

P.S. My works are not always of such unsettling nature. They’re worse when I’m happy 😉

Learning to Love Winter

I have never loved winter. The truth is I have hated her most of my life, I say her because she feels like a cold b*tch.  Sorry warm fuzzy lady friends but winter to me has been a bitter woman with a barren womb… a frustrated old spinster that has never shared an orgasm. She is an ugly gray witch with a huge wart on the end of her nose, or maybe it’s a mole…

Today however I have decided not to hate her. I actually made the decision yesterday but just now got around to sharing my ‘come to meeting’ with Mother Nature. You see we have been experiencing some warm sunny days in this part of Texas, warm enough to spark a storm (lord forgive me I do love a storm) and it was that very tempest that let me see the heart of winter.

I saw her weakness in the barren branches

Her sorrow in the ashen sky

Her longing for an absent lover

As lonely as the winter rye

 

 

Waiting

I honestly didn’t know who this man was (I’m sheltered like that) until Sara’s post exposed him here on WordPress. No, I do not live in a cave though I have often wished I did.

The thing that moved me other than his world renown photography is that Steve McCurry’s Simple Act of Waiting  told in pictures is [chillingly] what I imagined when I wrote Waiting. I seriously got goosebumps.

If you’re like me (sheltered and horrible with names) or you are lucky enough to live in a cave, that doesn’t matter – I know you will recognize his photos when you see them. Who could forget the eyes of the Afghan girl starring out from the cover of National Geographic? Who would want to?

Waiting

For hopes that hung on a chicken bones
For hearts that lived in chains
For pods of green that died unknown
While waiting for the rain

For dreams left bare on empty prayer
For souls that wished in vain
For tears unshared in mute despair
While waiting for a change

For you and I and all mankind
For worlds where peace was slain
For faith and mind no man can bind
We wait and wait again

Poem first published in Interior Verse © 2012. Republished 2018 in Getting Me Back

Writers are Bizarre

 

Writers are Bizarre, oh yes they are. I feel certain the majority of authors know this – those who don’t have not yet had their epiphany or come to terms with the fact. If the truth be told they are more than strange, they are obsessive odd balls bordering on schizophrenia. I suspect many have prescriptions but refuse to take the psychotropic medication because it hinders their creativity. They need to feel alive; to interact with the personalities dueling inside their heads, not subdue them. Their characters must be allowed a chance at life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness as well as the right to die.

Writers are bizarre, oh yes they are. From my observations this peculiarity seems to afflict creative writers especially. Creative writers and poets. Oh, poets are creative writers? Okay. Poets are a also a grievous lot. They are constantly imagining, seeing, and feeling or thinking. They are a curious hand with six digits and a raw nerve. Most of them are bereaved with some sort of incurable pain. Odd thing is it’s usually not their pain but the aches of every one and every thing around them as if they carried the weight of the world on their shoulders. On occasion one will write about the joy or beauty found in something. Usually that something is what the rest of earth’s inhabitants dismiss or take for granted on a daily basis.

Writers are bizarre, oh yes indeed they are. They carve out niches for indolent thoughts, sow seeds of cerebration, offer rest to weary secrets, and give birth to imagination.

Now what sort of world would this be without these flaky, freakish, alien-like individuals?

Gone would be the greens and reds, lost to slow decay. In place of all the rainbows bled – a shade of muted gray.

Weekly Photo Challenge (Inside)

For this weeks photo challenge I went immediately to an old jewelry box and looked inside.  I recall rummaging through my grandmothers costume jewelry like a pirate with precious booty.

Inside the Jewelry Box

Mine is filled with trinkets of cheap metals,  faux pearls and inexpensive stones but they are treasures to me and every piece holds a dear memory of the bestower.  This weeks theme also inspired me to share a prose from Interior Verse (which is free via kindle right now) titled The Chest of Hope.

 

The Chest of Hope

The Chest of Hope

It’s just a small brown wicker basket not built to hold much and a bit tattered from over handling.

Its beautiful warm browns have dulled and faded with age on the outside but inside the natural luster still shines. Its top is held in place by make do leather ties because the first woody hasps were worn in two and now dangle loosely without purpose.

What hands made the airy coffer?  I wonder as I stroke the thin smooth fibers.

Was it one as handsome as the tight weaves frayed by time?

Though dust has long since claimed his finger prints-

I know that he was a weaver; I imagine that he was a dream weaver…

Diligently intertwining each cane thread with my hopes in mind…

A place to store my breathing dreams so that they could be kept safe and close at hand, amassed in a beautiful fibrous reminder.

A quaint little chest of hope I will one day hand down to a child, a grand child or perhaps even a great grand child when I have used up its contents.

When I have taken the dusty lid off one last time and felt deep into the corners to make certain I haven’t left any ideas untouched.

I imagine when I offer it up to him or her they will look at me like I’m crazy (and I may well be) then they’ll tear the lid off expecting to find a treasure of sorts before saying with disappointment, “It’s just an empty old basket.” It is then I will share with them the wishes and ideas that were stored and later born of that basket. How they were kept safe till I could see them come to fruition. And one more time I will imagine the handsome dark skinned man who meticulously weaved the wonderful piece…a place to store my dreams because dreams need room to breathe.

Then I will show them how to place their own aspirations into the old auburn chest with caution to keep them safe, to nurture their hopes and give them time to mature.

And if my last wish were to come true I will see them realize the birth of their visions.

Pomegranates, Publicity & Prosperity

Ancient Egyptians reportedly considered the pomegranate as a symbol of prosperity. I haven’t researched the information yet to know if one must eat the fruit, own the tree or simply hold one in their possession to be prosperous. Surely worship of the seedy little crop is not required…. if so I shall have to remain not so prosperous. On the other hand I would consume as many as need be. Honestly, I don’t have much faith in pomegranates other than their health benefits.

I do however have some faith in publicity which is the sole purpose of this post, to make readers aware of the current promotions.

Perpetual Spring, a short little twisted story is free via Kindle through Sunday June 17th.

Interior Verse Plus Pose Prose and Poems, a diverse collection of “wicked poetry” is also free via Kindle through Sunday June 17th 2012.

The Goodreads giveaway of Between the Rage and Grace has started and will end July 15th 2012. The promotion is open to multiple countries.

P.S. I’m sorry for the late notification on the Kindle freebies that started Friday. I was out of town and quiet bummed by the passing of a dear family member. I’ll try to improve on the publicity aspect and keep a pomegranate on hand. Maybe we’ll all prosper 🙂

The Wild Pomegranate photo by Janna Hill

The Sunshine Award

Thanks to Mary Ann @ http://mypenandme.wordpress.com for listing me as one of her recommended blogs and sharing The Sunshine Award. Check her out.

The Sunshine Award

My answers to the questions are as follows:

Favorite color:  The rainbow

Favorite animal:  The humanoid

Favorite number:  5

Favorite non-alcoholic drink(s):  Coffee, Iced tea, Cherry Pepsi, Vanilla Coke

Facebook or Twitter:  Both

My greatest passion: Reaching abandoned goals

Favorite day of the week:  Tuesday

Favorite flower:  Gardenia

*The Sunshine Award guidelines are:

1. Link the award to the person who gave it to you.

2. Answer the questions that come with it.

3. Pass it along to other bloggers and let them know they have received it.

Krrrisshh–x–rrassshhhhhhh- Oops I’ve got a bad signal. I’ll have to write back later.

National Poetry Month & Expanding My Horizons

I went in search of a poet I knew nothing of [which is a ridiculously simple task for me] and pushed past my usual likes. To my surprise I liked this.

John Davidson was born at Barrhead, Renfrewshire, in 1857 and died by his own hand in 1909.

 

A BALLAD OF HELL

 

‘A letter from my love to-day!

Oh, unexpected, dear appeal!’

She struck a happy tear away,

And broke the crimson seal.

‘My love, there is no help on earth,

No help in heaven; the dead-man’s bell

Must toll our wedding; our first hearth

Must be the well-paved floor of hell.’

The colour died from out her face,

Her eyes like ghostly candles shone;

She cast dread looks about the place,

Then clenched her teeth and read right on.

‘I may not pass the prison door;

Here must I rot from day to day,

Unless I wed whom I abhor,

My cousin, Blanche of Valencay.

‘At midnight with my dagger keen,

I’ll take my life; it must be so.

Meet me in hell to-night, my queen,

For weal and woe.

‘ She laughed although her face was wan,

She girded on her golden belt,

She took her jewelled ivory fan,

And at her glowing missal knelt.

Then rose, ‘And am I mad?’ she said:

She broke her fan, her belt untied;

With leather girt herself instead,

And stuck a dagger at her side.

She waited, shuddering in her room,

Till sleep had fallen on all the house.

She never flinched; she faced her doom:

They two must sin to keep their vows.

Then out into the night she went,

And, stooping, crept by hedge and tree;

Her rose-bush flung a snare of scent,

And caught a happy memory.

She fell, and lay a minute’s space;

She tore the sward in her distress;

The dewy grass refreshed her face;

She rose and ran with lifted dress.

She started like a morn-caught ghost

Once when the moon came out and stood

To watch; the naked road she crossed,

And dived into the murmuring wood.

The branches snatched her streaming cloak;

A live thing shrieked; she made no stay!

She hurried to the trysting-oak—

Right well she knew the way.

Without a pause she bared her breast,

And drove her dagger home and fell,

And lay like one that takes her rest,

And died and wakened up in hell.

She bathed her spirit in the flame,

And near the centre took her post;

From all sides to her ears there came

The dreary anguish of the lost.

The devil started at her side,

Comely, and tall, and black as jet.

‘I am young Malespina’s bride;

Has he come hither yet?’

‘My poppet, welcome to your bed.’

‘Is Malespina here?’

‘Not he! To-morrow he must wed

His cousin Blanche, my dear!’

‘You lie, he died with me to-night.’

‘Not he! it was a plot’ … ‘You lie.’

‘My dear, I never lie outright.’

‘We died at midnight, he and I.’

The devil went. Without a groan

She, gathered up in one fierce prayer,

Took root in hell’s midst all alone,

And waited for him there.

She dared to make herself at home

Amidst the wail, the uneasy stir.

The blood-stained flame that filled the dome,

Scentless and silent, shrouded her.

How long she stayed I cannot tell;

But when she felt his perfidy,

She marched across the floor of hell;

And all the damned stood up to see.

The devil stopped her at the brink:

She shook him off; she cried, ‘Away!’

‘My dear, you have gone mad, I think.’

‘I was betrayed: I will not stay.’

Across the weltering deep she ran;

A stranger thing was never seen:

The damned stood silent to a man;

They saw the great gulf set between.

To her it seemed a meadow fair;

And flowers sprang up about her feet

She entered heaven; she climbed the stair

And knelt down at the mercy-seat.

Seraphs and saints with one great voice

Welcomed that soul that knew not fear.

Amazed to find it could rejoice,

Hell raised a hoarse, half-human cheer.

 

(2011-03-23). Modern British Poetry (Kindle Locations 796-809).  . Kindle Edition.